ashley a.k.a put-your-hands-up

A very new blog for me. :)

I have been thinking for a long day what should I start with my new blog. And here that's come to my mind about her and myself. The lovely one is always you. and the naughty one is always me.


Once upon a time, the story begin with me and her. *LOL*



Memory flashing back to my secondary school. Used to remember I'm always the one who acting like a boy with masculinity attitudes but I never found out that myself sexuality is a bit different to people around me.

*shy*

Come back to the memory. haha, there is a girl who told me that she like me and I was like a bit shock and scared but at the mean time I feel so lovely. I really don't know what my sexuality orientation was at that moment and I don't know what's going on or maybe it is just a joke. But however, we still start our relationship because I feel that I have a very strong feeling that bind between me and her.

Secondary school, I still remember my school used to be really strict and all my friends were like so serious. As I'm in the kind of relationship that they doesn't think it was normal, I'm trying to hide myself from them not telling them that the true of me. I scared people in my school will tell it to my parents as what they see me doing in the school. My mom used to have a lot of spy in my school.*scary*



Even I go out with the girl, I'm trying to act as friends rather than a couple. Ipoh is seriously a smal town that you can imagine how easily u get bump into your family's friends, cousin, and so called 8 po (neighbours) hahahaha.

Dressing and acting like a boy is a problem to me too even I'm not going out for dating. Shit! People will just say to my parents "Oh guess what I saw your daughter today but she act like a boy and I thought she was your son."



abit and tiny bit of things happening around me. Before the relationship started, I still doubt with my sexuality. but somehow, she give me a chance to understand myself.

When I walk with her, a storng feeling.
When I saw her, a strong feeling.
When I talk to her, a strong feeling.
When I close to her, a strong feeling.


The strong feeling is the feeling of love. That's what I understand with the feeling!