Sunday, May 20, 2007

friendship

As previously, I'm posting about my family reaction after I told them. I would like to talk about my friends as well. I got few gangs of friends but most of them are straight. This is how I can express the feeling by how they feel about me as a gay.

In Malaysia; secondary school. I never wanted to let any of my friends to know that I'm a lesbian but my close friends will do. Because I believe that not everyone could accept it especially guys. I'm really happy that my close friends keep being friends with me after I told them that I'm a lesbian. I think because the girl I love and I'm in a relationship with is their friend also. I think just because of this reason they could accept it. Maybe because of I'm pursuing in a girls school so everything will be different thinking for them. different point of view from the students. Friends told me that they can guess from my outlook that I'm lesbian but they just never ask. because they found it is mean to ask with the question of "are you a lesbian?" or "are you gay?" They are being so understanding. The feel happy that I tell them the truth of myself. After I told them that I'm a lesbian, I feel relief and they feel it the same way thou. Because they believe that best friends will share everything of themselves. Hiding the truth of themselves are not what friends called.

Still remember I did told one of my friends before that I'm a lesbian and I didn't know that she was a lesbian too. When I told her about myself and she admit that she is a lesbian too. We share things more deeply and topics are more wide. True friends will never care bout who you are, what you are, how old are you. They will accept everything about you because we are friends.
Is really hard to justify friends who is muslim once they know that I'm a lesbian how they will react and feel. In my school there are only three malay girls. I never told them that I'm lesbian and they are not my close friends. I cant really tell people who come from different religion how they will react. but I only understand that friendship will make everything good and fine.